Keep looking up!

Well, I guess I could say that, "I've seen better days"! Not feeling so well the last week. My hip has been bugging me and stopping me from doing most of any activities. Not sure exactly what's going on with it. Went to the chriopractor and she says it is bursitis. Probably from my horse accident. Maybe it's from six pregnancies witht he weight and all. Not sure how bad it is yet. I would have to get x-rays to really find out. I'm hoping that somehow through diet I can reverse whatever damage has been done. I've had a tough week and I get so frustrated because there is so much I should be doing. I have to remind myself that I still have one cavitation left in my jaw bone and until I get that removed, my health is compromised. I am also pretty sure that I have Celiac. I had a blood test done last year and Gluten is my highest alergey. I could have more testing done, but not sure I want to go through all that. So for now, I'm not touching gluten with a ten foot pole. I'm trying to switch my family over to as much gluten-free as I can. Wow, once again the arthritus is so bad I'm having a hard time typing. I will push on! I'm now experimenting with baking gluten-free. I have to be carefull though because the more baking I do the less raw I eat. Somehow I have to find a good balance. Well, that's all for today. I will keeping looking up to the SON and asking him for rest, peace, & healing!

One step at a time!

After having such a crazy day yesterday and an even worse day today, I'm trying to pull myself out of this ditch I'm in. Tomorrow I'm leaving to fly up to Northern Idaho to visit my grandmother who is 93 years old. Today I'm focusing on taking each day as it comes and making one step at a time. I think I get too ahead of myself. What I need to do is take baby steps. So I've decided that when I get back from my trip I'm going to try to do one new thing a week. These new things are something to lead me to become the person I want to be. My first task when I return is to begin recycling. The recycling in my area is terrible so I got the idea to check in a town that is 30 miles. I go shopping in this town quite frequently so why not save up my recycling and bring it there when I go. I guess when I return from my trip I'll try to figure out what my next step is going to be.

To be healthy, or not to be healthy, that is the question!

I've struggled and I'm still struggling! I have a picture in my mind of who I want to be but I just can't seem to become that person. Is it because it is not the will of God or am I rebelling? This is what I struggle with everyday. I keep telling myself it's because my health is so bad and now I only have 15 days left to go! I worry that even when my root canals come out and I'm feeling better I still won't become that person I want to be. I try to convince myself that when I feel better, it will be easier. So who do I want to be? I picture myself as that "organic chick" raising "organic children". Hopefully more to come, my wrists hurt to bad to type. I think I'll get in the bath and soak away the pain!

Confusing Day

Food Consumption: 8am - Cup of coffee with agave and organic half and half, lara bar, 1pm - juice from 2 oranges, 1 lemon, 2 apples, 2 sticks celery, 3 carrots, 2 leaves of collard, 1 cucumber. 3pm - Smoothie made from rice milk, 2 bananas, peanut butter, 1 tsp dark cocoa.

Had a tough morning. Hurt all morning and into the afternoon. Ran bath and drank smoothie. Some of my pain went away, but not sure why. Haven't taken a bath yet because the children were playing outside. Hoping to go take a bath now though.

Everything has a beginning

This is a new beginning for me. I've tried to feed my family healthy for the last five years, but the last month I've become more serious about it. The year of 2008 was a year for me to get onto a road of recovery. I've been pregnant for most of the last 9 years. My body needs healing. My first goal was to loose weight. My second goal was to have some dental issues taken care of. The result of 2008: 1) Lost 40 lbs! I started out the year just watching what and how much I was eating. I lost around 10lbs. Then I joined Weight Watchers online and lost around 15lbs. I didn't like some of the food I was eating. It had so many artificial things in it. I then joined Curves and lost a few more pounds. It was then that I went to visit a holistic dentist and started to eat more raw food. I also had food allergy testing done and found out my allergies are gluten, soy, dairy and eggs. Fortunately I had cut most of these foods out of my diet by going raw. It was through the raw diet that I lost the remaining 20 + lbs. Haven't lost any weight since August 2008 though. Haven't been quite as faithful with my raw diet. I've only gained a couple pounds back though. 2) Dentist office had a fire and closed down from May 2008 until Jan 2009. So here I am January of 2009. I finally get to have my root canals removed on March 18th. That's 47 days away! My health is slowly deteriorating. The arthritis in my hands has become so bad that typing this post seems almost impossible. My body aches almost all day, everyday. I have no energy and can't seem to exercise, because it takes any energy I have away from caring for my family. I've decided that over the next 47 days I'm going to have to use food to get as healthy as possible. So here I am again on a raw journey. My teeth have become so bad that I can't really chew so I'm doing a lot of juicing and smoothies. Below pictures are before and after. The before is a picture taken Christmas of 2007, just prior to my weight loss start. The after picture was just last month Christmas of 2008.

Balloon Head